This week Jeremy and I celebrated our nine year anniversary. It amazes me that my love and devotion for him has only grown. When he smiles at me there are times that my heart still skips a beat. His laugh still warms my soul. And sometimes, I even catch myself drooling as I stare at him. He is mine and I am so thankful!
To say that the last nine years has been all peaches and cream though would be a lie. All that I said above is true, but there have also been moments when I was sure I'd never been so disappointed or angry at another person. Marriage is hard! At times it's been a struggle. We've both grown and I'm hopeful we won't go through those struggles again but I'm sure new ones will arise.
There are many, many, things that I love about Jeremy but the thing that brings me peace, that gives me comfort every time I'm in his arms, is that I know, like myself, he won't give up on us. He's committed, no matter what struggles come our way or what hurtful words I spew at him, he's (we are) in this for the long haul!
Last year, at a wedding we attend they sang Jason Mraz's song, I Won't Give Up. It's a perfect anniversary song, a declaration that you are still all in. This is favorite part.
"For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not and who I am
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up."
It hits home. Even if you have great marriage (you married the right guy/girl) there are going to be disappointments. You can't let them break you or burn up the life you've created. If you are going make it you got to learn to bend. Being married has taught me lot about Jeremy and living with him, but even more than that it's taught me about myself - my weakness and how in many ways I'm still selfish/self-centered. One thing I'm sure of though is no matter how rough the skies get, he has all my love. I will never, ever give up having faith in us and our marriage.